Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile charlene britten, main blog Archives May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 September 2009 October 2009	Friday, 25 September 2009 good and bad news dear blog , i havent written for quite a long time and i have good and bad news tonight the good news is ----> on 09/23/2009 i just got my first kiss♥ awww i mean like im a girl and first kiss is the sweetest thing you could get after first love especially when you're a teenager like meeeeee. it was yesterday in his house ,no one knows except me and him right now .he told me not to tell anyone well i haven't yet -_- well i was smiling all day yesterday because of it and the feeling was...... idk it's just i was happy no pain no emptiness nothing just happy and okay =) and the bad news is ----> i have to leave him it's not that i dont love him or anything ,i love him and i swear really do .well i was just trying to learn to love him but it seems like something is holding him back and i hate the way he acts different around me when our friends are around us. so im tired of pretending around our friends and i assume im not the girl he's into and today he's acting so weird, i have a feeling he wants to let go :( so today i just said thank you and goodbye to him on MSN which i think is the stupidest thing someone could ever do ,i mean saying goodbye from MSN?.................................... STUPID :( and after i did that i actually cried and screamed really hard .my heart was breaking and i felt a million of emotions bursting out .anyone might think im stupid for falling for a person and actually having a heart broken too damn quick but this is me. i easily fall for someone especially what he did to me was something any girl would love.maybe this feeling is not true yet but it's still a feeling and i call it falling in love oh by the way just few moments ago i accidentaly found this quote and i think it really suit me right now ,lebay dari keadaan aslinya sih tapi biarin deh -_- it was one of the scariest feelings i ever had do you know what it feels like to have the one you care about most in the whole entire world, give their heart to some other girl? she could return his love, turn him down, use him, abuse him. ANYTHING. and all you cant do is stand by and watch you watch to see when he's happy, because then you know she must have made him laugh that day or watch his heart break because then you know she didn't return his call. so here i am watching you head over heels, while im hanging here upside down in love with you
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay